So, Oin's here. I feel bad for hiding it from him. I came right out and told him that I'm on insulin – and the reason I gave isn't exactly a lie. “My medical situation has changed, so I'm on insulin now.” Technically I'm not lying.

Got a little weird that I totally refused a drink when we went to a pub for a little nosh tho. Ah well, I played it off OK.

When is Thursday gonna get here? Not that I want this week to be over, but I want to tell our family!

I read the whole “Pregnancy Instruction Manual” last night before bed. I assume that's why I dreamed about being pregnant all night. I dreamed I felt the baby kick, and then I dreamed that I lost the baby.

I'm trying to ignore all the little pains from the nether regions, but it's really hard not to be paranoid. Paul and I talked more about the baby yesterday than we had so far, and a lot of that centered on facts and figures about miscarriage risks. Add to that the fact that we're in the “dangerous” 4-week stage of the bub being an embryo…. I feel like I just wanna wrap my whole body in bubble wrap and tuck myself into a closet for safekeeping for 4 weeks.

On the bright side, we told Lisa and Mike yesterday. I was holding off telling them so that we could tell family first on Thanksgiving. But Paul convinced me that there was no need to wait, and he knew how much I wanted to tell my best friend. They're happy for us, of course. It was so nice to talk to Lisa about this – she knows my mind and heart so well. So she really gets why this has thrown me for a loop like it has. It was really neat to tell someone tho.

I assume that this is really what it feels like to be pregnant. Today I went from pukey to ravenous in like 30 seconds, two separate times. Second time was in Walmart where I was shuffling along like a zombie doing price checks on my Thanksgiving list. It took all my willpower not to rip open the package of string cheese and eat one in the store. But I know what that would look like to everyone else, so I waited until I got into the car.

But I'm amazed today at how fast I'm becoming stomach-growling, starving. I don't get this hungry, and certainly not several times a day!

The other thing for today? Around 3:00 I just lost all my energy. Seriously, I could have laid my head down on my laptop and taken a nap. I zoned out the whole time while getting my nails done – it was all I could do to keep my eyes open. Hence the zombie-shuffling around Walmart. I knew I really wanted to check their prices so I forced myself to go tonight.

I am SO glad to be home, but the thought of trying to fix dinner seems laughable. Here's hoping Paul's in a good mood when he gets home and I can walk him through cooking some ravioli and heating up some sauce.

But srs, the rapid-fire changes in hunger and energy are kinda scary. Kinda cool, but definitely weird.

Heh. Just realized by looking at SlickDeals that the Toys'r'Us Rewards card thingie I signed up for a couple of months ago exclusively for video game discounts will now quite possibly come into use for baby-related things too.

Damn. I could possibly go into a Babies'r'Us without crying.

Oh who am I kidding? I'll still cry. But it'll be different now.

weird. This is so weird. I'm still me, but I'm gonna be someone's mom.

whoa.